The Path

A dear friend sent an email yesterday sharing where she is on her journey.  She was vulnerable and opened up to the struggles she is facing as God called her out of the familiar and into the unfamiliar.  I can so relate to her.  We are in a similar place, once again.   This time it is three years after our initial journey to Boston, where our paths crossed and the Lord used our friendship to grow in me things and new adventures I could never have even imagined.
Though now separated by miles and a time zone, I can place myself in her shoes and am still struggling to see the hand of God in where I am and where He has called me to be.  One thing she said really hit home with me.

 My heart is to serve the Lord wherever He places me in whatever capacity He wills

This too is my prayer though I feel my heart is not doing a great job of showing evidence of this.  My attitude is definitely not reflecting this and I often leave conversations frustrated that I am not further along.
My prayer this time last year as I was in the midst of my last year of grad school was that just as He had before I moved, that God would reveal to me His plan and where He wanted me to go.  As the months continued and I still had no answer and no interviews, I searched scripture and prayed and prayed and prayed.  I looked once again behind me and reflected on the trail of faithfulness He had brought me down and clung to the hope that He was not going to just STOP and leave me to fend for myself.  I am not completely to that point, but I am thankful for the small glimpses He is showing me that He has not forsaken me in this familiar yet very unfamiliar place.  I know I am exactly where He wants me to be and that does give me hope.

Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:3-4

It is right now that I am praying I will cultivate faithfulness, that I will continue to search scripture and press into my God seeking Him and trusting that just like He always has, He will continue in His faithfulness to me, though it may not look like I think it should!  I have to constantly be reminded, I am not in control!!!